Who recognises this? (I wrote it at 3am so no idea if it makes sense 🙈)
That pattern of doing stuff we don't want to do ALL the time.
Resenting the stuff we don't like to do.
Chastising ourselves for hating it.
Wanting more and more and more and when we don't get the THING, feeling like we've failed.
But what if it's not about the THING. What if it's about the FEELING?
What if we sit with that FEELING the THING gives us and discover what we're really craving?
And then think about, where do we experience that FEELING already?
Maybe with the washing up, walking, sitting on the sofa with our kids? Because sometimes it's in the mundane things we do.
What if we just did more of what we liked and less of the stuff we didn't like? Would the world fall apart?
What would happen if we just stopped all the stuff we hated? Would it ever get done?
Maybe, just maybe it would get carried along in the stuff we liked doing?
Because everything is just a thought. And then a thought becomes an action. And a feeling. And, sometimes, a habit.
And then we can't see past the 'GOT to do this' even if we feel crap from it.
Would it make a difference to stop and watch our thoughts, as we go through the minutes of the day? Just watching as we do something. And watch whether we like doing it or not.
And if we don't like doing it, do something that lights us up instead